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[09 Aug 2005|07:17pm] |
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Well a couple of weeks ago i went to Camp Creek which was amazing really, the music was insane and the people were awesome. I had so much fun just meeting new people and hanging out with my friends. The thing about the people at this type of festival is that you can just go up to someone and just start talking and have an awesome conversation, everyone is so nice and it really provides a sense of community. I also enjoyed spending some time with some friends that i hadnt seen very often in a while. It also gave me some things to think about and in a way altered some things i had been thinking about.
I broke up with chris a few days ago after a lot of thinking. i dont know exactly what happened it was just i guess a change of heart, like for about a month now slowly my feelings have been dissipating towards him. I guess its because of serveral small reasons but it just seems as though maybe im changing and im not really compatible with him anymore, or maybe its just that i was so infatuated with him before i overlooked his certain flaws. Whatever the exact reason, which im postive it wasnt just one reason, it happened and its over. It was somewhat hard for me to do considering it took me a long time to determine that this was the correct decison, however i realized it was right when i began to tell him my feelings and he got really sad. Normally if i had still been feeling the way i was before towards him this would have hurt me to see him sad like that but, it didnt really. I mean im not saying im some cold-hearted bitch that could careless if i hurt someone's feelings its just that it didnt seem to change my feelings towards the whole situation. And after all was said and done i feel somewhat relieved so i suppose it was the right thing to do. What me and chris had was amazing, i mean truly he made me very happen at times and i would never trade what we had. I mean we had our ups and downs but overall it was a great experience its just that our time together has past.
Besides that ive been feeling a whole new sense of change everything in my life seems to be changing and mostly for the better. School starts soon and im loooking foward to getting back to a solid schedule...that may sound somewhat werid, but ive always been the type to like having a set schedule it makes me feel like im actully doing stuff with my time i get depressed when i have too much idle time cause i feel like its just wasted time. And i have a feeling this year will bring a lot of new experiences and whatnot.
Last Saturday Anup took me to the zoo, and we had a good time. I hadn't been to the zoo in a long time, it was nice to see all the animals and stuff. Yet quite dissappointing because there was no polar bears, because they killed them :( but it was still fun.
Hmm besides that.... This weekend im going to another 3 day music festival, Gathering of the Vibes. Its a tribute to the Grateful Dead and a lot of good bands are going to be there like darkstar orcherstra, deep bannana blackout, jefferson starship, Bob Weir and Ratdog, and a lot more. So it shall be another great time.
Well thats about all for now, perhaps ill write more when i come back next week...
oh almost forgot Anup sent me this picture that he took during school and it makes me miss my hair soo much...:(
okay then well thats all
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[25 Jul 2005|03:32pm] |
Am I loud and clear or am I breaking up?
Am I still your charm or am I just bad luck?
Are we getting closer or are we just getting more lost?
I'll show you mine if you show me yours first
Let's compare scars I'll tell you whose is worse
Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words
We live on front porches and swing life away
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave 'til the end
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand
I've been here so long I think that its time to move
The winter's so cold summer's over too soon
Let's pack our bags and settle down where palm trees grow
And I've got some friends some that I hardly know
We've had some times I wouldn't trade for the world
We chase these days down with talks of the places that we will go
Photography is such an amazing thing, i mean to be able to capture beauty its crazy. The way some people can take the most ordinary simple things and just turn them into something extraordinary, or the way that a person can really capture the essence of something through a picture, like to actully express the important and meaning of a visual without words i love it.
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[24 Jul 2005|04:35pm] |
alright so basically i dont update this journal anymore, just havent had the time i guess but i have nothing to do right now and thought it would be some good self-therapy to just write for a while. Life has been decent since school has ended all my days have been lazy summer days sleeping in late hanging around doing nothing for the most part, although i have been thinking a lot ya know just about life in general. it seems that whenever i have lots of empty time thats what i tend to do, i keep telling myself i should get a real journal and write it in but im afraid that i would be to lazy to actully write in it. Its like at the most random moments ill start thinking about something really random but good thoughts, thoughts i wish i could write down but i know by the time i have the chance to write the thought would have been lost. Like for example one day i was driving home from the beach and i was listening to all these different songs on the radio and i started to think about just how important music is. For me music has been a huge part of my life ever since i was born, i guess it was because my mom had always loved music so she made sure to surround my sister and me with as much music as possible, so i grew up knowing all the bad and good music from the 1960s to present day i think i was the only fourth grader who knew all the names of the beatles, and listened to led zepplin. Being as it was ive realized that i could not live without music its become sort of a part of me. I love how music can fit any sort of mood and set any scene. Music can make you feel happy, sad, angry, excited and just about any other possible emotion. And Music is always there for you, ya know? Like when you break up with your boyfriend and you just dont feel like listening to anyone go on and on about how you were so better than them and its better that you broke up, but music is such an escape you can just listen to some sad music and let out all your emotions. well i guess thats the way i like to handle things sometimes i just dont know how to talk to about things its best for me to just vent it out in my own space first.
Anyways besides that i went to washington state a few weeks ago and it was absolutely amazing. It has somewhat of a similar environment to New England as far as lots of green forests and whatnot, but it had more. So many beautiful spots and trails and views. There were forests with extremely huge redwood like trees and trails that took you right through the forests. Another amazing thing was the pacific ocean, i had never seen the pacific before and it has such huge waves, well a lot bigger than any around here. One day i went surfing and had the best time it was truly a great experience.
This weekend im going to Camp Creek with a few friends it sounds like a great music festival in New York, good people and good music = great time. So that should be fun.
well i have to go now
perhaps ill write more later
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[08 Jun 2005|05:12pm] |
When I wake up in the morning
Sunshine's falling on my skin
And I call you up to tell you
What a happy mood I'm in
Feel the rhythm in my body
And sing is all I wanna do
I feel the day will bring me sunshine
for it's another day with you
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Measuring a summer’s day,
I only finds it slips away to grey,
The hours, they bring me pain.
*tangerine, tangerine,
Living reflection from a dream;
I was her love, she was my queen,
And now a thousand years between.
Thinking how it used to be,
Does she still remember times like these?
To think of us again?
And I do.
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[31 May 2005|07:04pm] |
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You listen to the quiet song of waves and to the group of ducks in the reeds near the rocky islet, and the idyll is so perfect, that no art can create anything more perfect... - Eino Kaila, Finnish philosopher
wow i really havent written anything in an extremely long time. I suppose i have just been busy but i have a free moment so i thought i should perhaps update.
My life has been good, well not bad to say the least. The weather has become increasingly habitually nicer, which is absolutely amazing. I find moments spent laying in the grass on a warm day most soothing lately. Nature is such a calming thing.
Nature is so perfect because of all its imperfections. I mean think about it, you can do anything you want to nature use it abuse it or just observe it and it does nothing. Nature is so predictable in the way that every year no matter how long and harsh the winter has been spring will come... eventually. Its comforting in a way, i mean people are so unpredictable their feelings can change minute by minute and the prediction of someone's feelings are never a sure thing. However at the same time nature is so very mysterious and unpredicatable the wrath of nature is a deadly thing when provoked, i mean just look at that whole tsunami thing in India, that force was greater than any force of man. And think about how mysterious nature is.
Nature can be broken down into patterns, everything in nature is mathematical. Take a leaf, any leaf and im sure it has some sort of order repeating pattern. Pattern can be found in the smallest section of nature, or in nature as a whole. I'd have to say that its quite possible that nature is one of my closest companions.
Like take snowflakes for example, each snowflake is so unique and intricate in its own way but from a distance all snowflakes appear the same. I mean talk about symbolism there, each person is so unique and individual up close, but from a distance all human beings are the same. I was thinking about that today like all the people i know and come in contact with, i know on such a personal level in a way like each person i know is attached to traits and personality in my brain, but if i separated each person from how i know them, and instead veiwed them as a human being and only a human being life can be simplified so much.
Well... anyways thats what was on my mind today. Besides that school has been good i have about three weeks left, which, if you ask me, is much too long. Chris's last day is tomarrow than he has exams and then hes done.
Chris and me have really been getting closer lately. For a while things were kind of rough due to some unmentioned factors, but now it seems like we are doing really good. He really makes me happy you know, i love hanging out with him for the most part i mean once in a while there will be moments when i feel weird but not really because so much of the other time its just awesome. Like the other day, it was beautiful outside, so we decided to drive down to the Falls and hangout there for a while. We got there and walked down to the bring and sat down and just kind of laid on the bridge for like an hour, and its moments like that make me feel so satisfied with everything. I mean it seriously was one of the moments, ya know those extremely awesome moments when your nothing else but happy... just happy. However im also kind of depressed because i know hes graduating really soon which means next year he isnt going to be going to school with me, which in a way is really werid to think about because it makes me wonder how hard it will be not seeing him everyday while im at school, but then again maybe it will be a good thing just see each other a lot more outside of school. Who knows whats going to happen, see so unpredictable nothing like nature, i mean i know that when September comes the weather will start to change the leaves will begin to die and fall will creep in just like every other year, but i haven't the slightest clue as to what will happen to chris's and mine relationship when school starts. But im not going to think about that now im just going to think about this summer and how awesome its going to be, hopefully ill get to spend lots of perfect moments with chris just wasting time.
Hmm... prom is Friday. And i suppose it will be fun i mean the music might suck and some of the people there might be somewhat annoying but im sure me and chris can have a good time, it seems to me that things like prom are all what you make of them, so we shall see.
Well i suppose im done for now, it actully feels really good to write again, i havent in so long and i forgot how this kind of helps just by getting my thoughts out.
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Relax and stand in the warmth of the sand
the day is long
and here for us to take for granted.
We find ourselves to our knees
Water clear, a tender breeze upon our faces
as we bask in our good graces
Yeah, we all are golden here.
I want the beach... i want a beautiful day, with blue skies with just enough clouds to make shapes out of but not too many so that they block the sun. I want sun, lots of sun i want to lay in the sand for hours feeling the warmth of the sun and the earth, i want to float in the ocean careless as to where i swayed. I want to be careless without a worry, i want happiness to be my most overpowering feeling...i want to be just happy with nothing else, and i want a nice day to be enough. just enough.
Ive been well a few days last week and the week before were really nice, it felt so nice to be able to go outside with a coat on. It was close to 80 Sunday, i went to wickford and walked around in all the stores it was really nice. April Vacation is next week, which will be good i need a break from routine. A week from tomarrow my sister, my mom, and me are going to Florida. I havent really been that excited about it, lately ive been realizing that. I mean when i was younger i would get so excited before i went on vacation but now it doesnt even really occur to be that i am, maybe im just older now or something. I went to Wickaboxet Rock Yesterday with Chris, id never been there and it was really amazing, i mean the rock is so huge you climb up it and you can see for miles and miles and all it looks like is dense forest it kind of makes you feel like there is nothing surrounding you except trees and its just you, but its a nice feeling a one of a kind type of feeling. I hope the days start getting warmer regularly i saw some buds on a few trees in my backyard the other day so thats promising.
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[03 Apr 2005|03:58pm] |
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"Perhaps all i pursue is astonishment and so i try to awaken only astonishment in my viewers. Sometimes "beauty" is a nasty business."
-M.C. Escher
I am completely captivated by M.C. Escher. Saturday i went to the library and checked out a book that includes a lot of his works along with tons of sketches and lots of insights into who M.C. Escher really was. I dont know exactly what suduces me about him, i mean his work is amazing in so many ways but its more than that he is an extremely interesting human being.
This week was a good week i got to see chris Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, and Saturday. We went to see Grease Thursday night which was surprisingly very good. Friday we went over this kid Alex's house with Andy Howard, it was kind of awkward considering i was the only girl there with like 12 guys but id say it was pretty funny. Then Saturday during the day i went out shopping with my mom and my sister which was nice cause i havent really seen a lot of my sister since shes been practically living at John and Rachel's house. Then Saturday night my parents went out and chris came over and we had a really nice night. Hmm School has been decent i guess nothing really extraordinary or anything, just fair.
I finished reading the Catcher and The Rye which overall was a pretty good book, not the best but it gave some new perspective to a few things and it was well-written i suppose, i mean it had a very informal voice but considering it was done nicely. However now ive begun a truly amazing book, The Hours. Its a novel that follows the lives of three different women set in three different time periods with different stories that strangely entwine. Id said it was probably the best book ive read since the Perks of Being a Wallflower. It is written so adeptly, the the author expresses the thoughts of each chracter and portrays the world so accurately and beautifully i highly reccommend it.
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"MAURITS ESCHER, born June 17 1898 in Leeuwarden, Holland, is one of Europe’s most original graphic artists - and an extremely skilled one.
He is, without any doubt, primarily a graphic artist; he has said that most of his life has been spent in making some kind of analytic composition out of his subjects by means of graphic processes such as wood-engraving or lithography.
Yet Escher sees unlimited possibilities in a theory that has been exploited for over 500 years: rendering the natural appearance of forms in space and through distance. Not content with the traditional theory, Escher combines several viewpoints in one print. The spectator has the sensation of viewing the scene simultaneously from above, below and on the same level.
The artist’s technical mastery is unmistakable, making his most imaginative subjects convincing - sometimes frighteningly so. That his imagination is, to say the least, eccentric cannot be denied: his work is at once surrealistic, representational and macabre. Escher is mathematician, photographer, architect and visionary. He is all these things, and more: an artist."
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so yeah saw the ring 2 last night, it was alright i was really high so it was actully quite funny lol, ate wayyy to much candy but it was good. Then Today Becky, Katie, Erin, Aiden, and Avery came over and we all hung out it was a good time. Pretty pumped to go to Badfish tomarrow night it shall be fun.
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were just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year...
hmm not to sound psycho or anything, but sometimes i just wish i was crazy like i had voices in my head or something and i had friends that didnt really exsist, i really think that bring a whole new prespective to my life, cause everyone would think i was crazy except me and my "friends" and id never be alone, well id be alone for real, but i would never know that. And like supposively being crazy like that is like one big LSD trip. Although at times it could get scary i guess, i dont know just a thought.
So ive been observing a lot of people recently, i guess its mostly because of the book im reading. This always happens when i read a book it effects so many other aspects of my life, i wonder if thats how it is for everyone or just me. Like i suppose its kind of good, cause thats what i really love about books they really give you a different perspective into life. And ive read a few books that are about teens and their lives so that really gives a different perspective on something that is almost the same as mine.Well any ways im reading the catcher and the rye right now, and the main character is always making observations about people like the way they act, and i can really relate, i think anyone could really cause its stuff that is kind of always there, it just makes you more aware of it. Just how people are and all their quirks and whatnot, i love the way he makes observations about the smallest things. And the way he responses to different things, it truly is an awesome book. Some people compare to being extremely similar to Perks of Being a Wallflower but i wouldnt exactly say that i mean i loved the Perks, probably a little bit more than this book, just cause the character is such an outcast and it does such an awesome job of showing a transition that this boy makes as he learns about himself and life as he goes, but in The Catcher and the Rye the character is more grown, more knowing of himself, so in that aspect its different. However both are awesome books that i highly recommend.
Ive been really doing good in my classes, i think im finding a new found love for writing. I really did use to despise writing in any forms, essays were to me like cryptonite is to Superman. However recently i have been finding it so much easier to write, maybe its cause ive been reading a lot more, they always would say how if you were a good reader than you would be a better writer, so maybe its that or maybe im just progressing in that area, whatever it is i like it. Math is going well im usually good at math but this semester i got off to a sort of bad start, but im better now.
I miss the summer, i miss times close with people, i mean really close. I want to be careless, free all day to lay around in the sun. How many times can i say it... it must seem quite dull and repetetive by now, but i truly cant wait for summer. Spring has begun this week, although it doesnt feel like it in the least hopefuly soon the days will become nicer. Overall this winter wasnt that bad though, it had its low points of course but life has low points (even when the sun is bright, although its not very likely) and ive made a lot of new friends this year. I feel that perhaps ive grown more into myself. Last year was the biggest progression into myself by far but i feel more comfortable with who i am now, i find myself being less and less cautious to be who i am, who i like to be.
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"heart beating like footsteps, intruding. this is not what i desire. this is not where i desire. this is real. and she is not. she's just a dream, but she's more than this world could bring me. she's honest. and she doesn't mind telling me everything, even when there isn't much to tell... even when there is."
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[ .001. ] first name: Jenna
[ .002. ] middle name: Elizabeth
[ .003. ] last name: Barbour
[ .004. ] nickname(s): Jen, Jenny
[ .005. ] gender: girl
[ .006. ] age: 15
[ .007. ] birthday: October 11, 1989
[ .008. ] height: 5'6
[ .009. ] hair color: dark brownish
[ .010. ] eye color: hmm... i dont know i dont stare at my eyes much but i suppose they are just brown
[ .011. ] race: white
[ .012. ] do you wear glasses or contacts: none of the above
[ .013. ] do you have braces: no,use to but not anymore
[ .014. ] is your hair long or short: hmm very long some would say
[ .015. ] where were you born: Rhode Island
[ .016. ] current location: the west side of greenwich
[ .017. ] zodiac sign: 100% libra
[ .018. ] how many languages do you know: only english... but i guess sort of spanish?
[ .019. ] nationality: 75% italian, 25% irish/scottish/french canadian
[ .020. ] bad habits: um.. asking too many questions, and talking about meaningless things too much
[ .021. ] piercings you have: ears, and belly
[ .022. ] piercings you want: umm lip perhaps but nothing else
[ .023. ] tattoos you have: none
[ .024. ] tattoos you want: perhaps something small one day but not really interested, the human body is beautiful unmarked
[ .025. ] today's date: march 17
[ .026. ] the time: 4:40 pm
[ .027. ] ready for a bunch more questions: why not
: : family : :
[ .028. ] mother's name: Linda
[ .029. ] Father's name: James
[ .030. ] step-parent's names: none to speak of
[ .031. ] brother(s)'s name(s): doesnt exsist
[ .032. ] sister(s)'s name(s): Heather
[ .033. ] favorite aunt: Kelly, cause shes been around the whole world and is really interesting
[ .034. ] favorite uncle: Jimmy, just cause i can talk to him
[ .035. ] favorite grandparent: Grandpa Paglione cause hes extremely funny
[ .036. ] worst relative: my three cousins that live in boston, the fakest people ive ever met
[ .037. ] best relative: hm.. id say my cousin Sean hes just always been so fun to hangout with
[ .038. ] do you get along with your parents: for the most part.. but we disagree on certain subjects
[ .039. ] does anyone in your family understand you?: my mom partially
. : private life : .
[ .186. ] do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend: yes
[ .187. ] do you have a crush: well i suppose hes my crush if hes my boyfriend
[ .188. ] do you love anyone right now: hmm.. i cant say that i do but perhaps im in a situation that could lead to that some day
[ .189. ] have you ever been in love: no
[ .190. ] how many people have you kissed: hmm... something like 4?
[ .191. ] who was your first kiss: Jared.. way too much spit but hey it was 7th grade what do you expect?
[ .192. ] how many hearts have you broken: im not sure
[ .193. ] how many people broke your heart: ive never really been in love, but about 2 people have hurt me really bad
[ .194. ] best quote to sum up love: "When love beckons to you follow him,Though his ways are hard and steep. And when his wings enfold you yield to him, Though the sword hidden among his pinions May wound you.
And when he speaks to you believe in him, Though his voice may shatter your dreams As the north wind lays waste the garden. For even as love crowns you so shall he crucify you. Even as he is for your growth
So is he for your pruning." -The Prophet by Gibran Khalil Gibran
[ .195. ] so what is your bf/gf/crush like:Hmm...well i can talk to him about anything... he can always brighten my day, and when we are together it feels really good
[ .196. ] do you have a picture of him/her: hmm... somewhat
[ .197. ] please post it if you do: not on my computer
[ .198. ] do you have a picture of yourself: lol yes
[ .199. ] please post it if you do: no thanks
[ .200. ] do you go by looks or personality: personality, but anyone who says that thats all thats needed to be with someone is lying, because there has to be some sort of attraction
[ .201. ] ever kiss a friend:Yes, a few actully
[ .202. ] are you still friends: some, some no, but it wasnt because of the kiss
[ .203. ] do you smoke regularly: no i dont prefer cigarettes
[ .204. ] do you smoke weed regularly: i suppose you could say that... but i dont use it as a way to escape anything, or to make me feel better, i just do it because i like it
[ .205. ] ever trip on acid: nah
[ .206. ] how about a a little x: hmm not my thing
[ .207. ] crack, heroin: again not my thing
[ .208. ] beer good or beer bad: beer tastes like piss.
[ .209. ] are you the sissy who drinks wine coolers: yes, when i do drink its rather wine coolers because they taste good, or hard liquor cause it works the fastest
[ .210. ] do you like smirnoff ice: idk? not that much of a preference i suppose
[ .211. ] prefer beer or liquor: liquor, beer=grot
[ .212. ] what kind of cigarettes do smoke: hmm dont really know the difference, cause i dont smoke them regularly, but if i had to clove cigarettes are my favorite
[ .213. ] are you a virgin: yes
[ .214. ] if no, when was the last time you got some: virgin
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[ .215. ] bungee jump: depends on how i was feeling
[ .216. ] sky dive: perhaps
[ .217. ] swim with dolphins: yeah probably
[ .218. ] scuba dive: deffinately, it would be an awesome experience
[ .219. ] go rock climbing: yeah, but im kind of weak so i probably couldnt
[ .220. ] eat shit for $1,000,000: lol... probably not
[ .221. ] turn your back on your friends for personal gain: depends on the friend and the gain
[ .222. ] steal a friend's boyfriend/girlfriend: nah.. unfortunately i have before but that was a long time ago when i was dumb and much more immature
[ .223. ] cross-dress: i guess so... depending on where and when
[ .224. ] lie to the police: haha... maybe but id probably be wicked sketchy and end up blowing the lie
[ .225. ] run from the police: if absolutely necessary
[ .226. ] lie to your parents: yeah... but only if i was going to get in trouble or something, but probably not about anything too serious
[ .227. ] walk up to a stranger and kiss them: hahha i could possibly
[ .228. ] be an exotic dancer: probably not, i would feel so uncomfortable and objectified
[ .229. ] walk out of a restaurant without paying: probably if i was feeling like a rebel
[ .230. ] streak: yes... rebellion is soo cool lol
. : your friends : .
[ .231. ] closest to: Chris, Erin, Katie D
[ .232. ] known longest: Chelsea D
[ .234. ] wish you saw more: Meagan, Becky, Sam
[ .235. ] how many friends do you think you have: Plenty... im happy
[ .236. ] who drives you insane after a while: Billy
[ .237. ] who can you stay around forever and never get sick of: Chris, Katie D
[ .238. ] ever lose a good friend because you took it to the 'next level': nah... i dont think so
[ .239. ] craziest: hmm probably Erin
[ .240. ] loudest: no one in particular.. maybe Chelsea?
[ .241. ] shyest: Sam
[ .242. ] best hair: Becky
[ .243. ] can always make you laugh: Chris
[ .244. ] best eyes: katie D
[ .245. ] best body: Tory
[ .246. ] most athletic: Katie D
[ .247. ] sex symbol:hmm... no one in specific i dont think?
[ .248. ] hot tempered: Chelsea
[ .249. ] most impatient: haha.. i guess erin can be impatient with certain people
[ .250. ] shortest: Brooke
[ .251. ] tallest: Billy
[ .252. ] talented: Karl
[ .253. ] best singer: dont know..
[ .254. ] skinniest: Brittany D
[ .255. ] nicest: Sam
[ .256. ] best personality: Alllll
[ .257. ] biggest drug user: hmm none of my friends are "drug-users" we all are just recreational marijuana smokers
. : the last : .
[ .306. ] thing you ate: Ben and Jerry's Ice Cream
[ .307. ] thing you drank: kool-aid
[ .308. ] thing you wore: stripped underware and a tank top
[ .309. ] place you went: school
[ .310. ] thing you got pierced/tattooed: my belly
[ .311. ] person you saw: Danielle
[ .312. ] person you kissed: Chris
[ .313. ] person you fucked: innocent
[ .314. ] person you talked to: my mom
[ .315. ] song you heard: Saint Simon - The Shins
[ .316. ] person you saw that you havent seen in a while: maybe...wait.. i dont know?
[ .316. ] what are you eating: gum
[ .317. ] what are you drinking: none
[ .318. ] what are you wearing: a long white skirt, and a cotton tank top
[ .320. ] hair: down and straight
[ .321. ] listening to: Simon and Garfunkel
. : Goodbye : .
[ .322. ] What time is it now?: 5:18
[ .323. ] how much time did you waste?: haha too much... but i dont like to think of wasting anytime. Just more time in the day.
[ .324. ] any last words?:russian
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[15 Mar 2005|03:47pm] |
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He who wonders discovers that this in itself is wonder.
-M. C. Escher
I love music and i love all the simple things in life... like the sky, color, and movement. "God must have been a painter", just look at all the colors there are in this world. Colors are moods... soo many moods... so many different feeling can be both represented and effected by color.
Im craving yellows, and greens, and bright beautiful overwhelming colors of healthy plants and clear skys, i want to feel the mellow tones of the ocean, i want the deep browns of healthy earth, i want summer.
School is good, life is pretty decent ive been feeling very creative lately like i need to express myself in some way, like maybe if i paint with bright colors, dress in vivid tones, and just surround myself with beautiful mood-enhancing vibrant things then ill feel just as happy as everything is colorful... so far it seems to be working.
Also ive been listening to a lot of realllly good music recently.. i mean i always do but broadening my horizons i suppose. I have been into a lot of Simon and Garfunkel which is very happy uplifting all around good music, and a lot of ska and even some classical violin pieces.
So as of now im putting myself in a very good place, i like it
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[09 Mar 2005|06:41pm] |
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"but fortunately i have the key to escape reality
and you may see me tonight with an illegal smile
it don't cost very much, but it lasts a long while
won't you please tell the man i didn't kill anyone
no i'm just tryin' to have me some fun"
mm... so its Wednesday im in quite a good mood right now got my mom brought me home a new jimi hendrix cd and its putting me in a very good place. School was alright today it actully went by pretty fast, this whole has seemed like i barely do anything in any of my classes and its not because i just dont do the work its just that we really dont do anything, then ive fallen into the habit of coming home and sleeping cause i usually stay up till like 12 at night then when i wake up around 5 or so and it seems like the day is so far gone almost non-exsistant, perhaps too much drugs? Or maybe its just cause the day itself isnt that relevant or present.
Friday im hanging with erin afterschool which shall be awesome cause i havent really hung with her in an extremely long time, but i miss her and with the warm weather coming soon (hopefully) there really isnt anyone i could have more fun with than her. Then Friday night we are going to Lupos to see The Machine, a very good Pink Floyd cover band, so im very pumped for that.
Ive been reading a lot of books lately, it started the beginning of this year with The Perks of Being a Wallflower which is a very popular book now cause ive heard of a lot of people reading it but i absolutely loved it, and then i picked up pure sunshine which was all about this group of guys who were really into LSD and it offered some interesting perspectives but at the same time it kind of pissed me off, i guess it was just the characters personalities. Then i read Empress of the World not to long ago, it was deffinately a different subject matter, i think thats why i picked it up (besides the fact that i was oddly attracted to the cover) it deals with with girl who goes to a gifted youth summer school thing and falls in love with this other girl even though she never really saw girls in that way before, i liked the way it was written like from the girls point-of-view alone so you never really got into how any other characters thought but more of like the girl reacted to the way the other characters thought like usually with books that are told in first-person point of view you see the main character's thoughts but usually you see some of the other character's thought in some ways, so i guess i liked how you just saw how the one main character thought without any other information as to how the other characters viewed the same situations. Hmm yeah and i just started the Catcher and Rye this weekend cause i guess its supposed to be very similar to perks of being a wallflower ive read about 70 pages and im just now starting to get really into... so if anyone can suggest any good books that would be awesome cause i dont really know what im going to read next
word of the day:
Abstract-
Considered apart from concrete existence
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[08 Mar 2005|05:51pm] |
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Things have been well for the most part been thinking a lot but too lazy to share that right now just woke up... but.....
Things i want to do when it gets warm...
1.)drive in a car with all the windows down and not be cold
2.) float in the ocean all day long
3.) build a sand castle
4.) go on a picnic
5.) go for really long nature walk
6.) spend the day in wickford
7.) go to the beach at night
8.) go to a concert outside
9.) wear a long skirt and dance outside barefoot
10.) lay in the sun
11.) go camping in New Hampshire
12.) go swimming in a lake
13.) hike up a mountain
14.) sleep outside
15.) look at the stars and make up constellations that dont exsist
hmm well thats all i have for now im sure i will come up with more and i shall add them later
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[04 Mar 2005|03:43pm] |
You walk up to her.
Ask her to dance.
She says, "Hey, baby, I just might take the chance."
You say, "It's a good thing
That you float in the air... in the air.
That way there's no way I will crush your pretty toenails into a thousand pieces."
-weezer
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[27 Feb 2005|08:37pm] |
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...she walked on down the hall, and said mother i want to cook you breakfast..."
So its Sunday, the last day of vacation which means school tomarrow. I cant decided if happy to go back to school or not, i mean i dont feel like getting up or anything but i think id be kind of bored if i stayed home all day, so i guess its a good thing. Umm Thursday i went shopping with Becky and Avery which was a lot of fun. Then Friday i just hung at home, finished reading my book and painted for a while. Saturday i went out with my mom for a while, then Chris came over and we watched the second ninja turtle movie, lol the one with vanilla ice. Then we left my house and headed over to erin and billy's house, so it was a very fun night. Today i hungout with my sister. we went up to the falls and took pictures and then went on an adventure and explored some of the random roads near our house.
Here are some pictures at the falls
after it got really cold we headed back to the car and hung there for a bit
then we headed off and took random pictures out the windows
We found this werid pond that had a stone wall going through it
Hmm... yeah so that was my day. I feel so content right now, like not overly happy or sad just content. Im really in the mood to go to a concert or just listen to some good music, i wish it was summer and i could go outside and look at the stars tonight would be so perfect for that...
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[23 Feb 2005|06:45pm] |
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kafkaesque -
something that eludes understanding the more that understanding is sought
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[22 Feb 2005|06:14pm] |
she turned, glancing at him
he sat on the old worn bed in the bleak room at the end of the hall
to anyone else he wasnt special or of any importance,
but to her... he really was something
she viewed him the way a kaleidoscope focuses ugly peices of glass into beautifully intricate designs...
perfection within mediocrity
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